Far Away (Forever) A True Tale

Many think that love cannot survive the largest distance
I do not believe what they have to say
I know it seems like much more than 2000 miles
But numbers don't matter so they claim
People tell me every day that you are not for me
Surely they must mean the other way
I know that I am the one that isn't right for you
And when people say it's you I nearly scream
2000 miles isn't a distance you can simply walk to
A plane is too expensive for us both
I know that many think we won't survive this little issue
Others think that this is just a crush
To you and me and us 2000 miles is an inch
For it feels as if I never leave your side
But I know 2000 miles could be a distance
That keeps me from looking deep into your eyes
You can tell me every day that you love me
In your sleep you can dream of me near you
2000 miles won't change some things though
Like the way I memorize you

To Toy With One's Heart

To play with ones heart like a silly toy
I pull it along on puppet strings
You follow what I tell you
And you protect me as well as silly toys can
I have millions of you stupid toys, stupid boys
You stalk me with your eyes closed
Your wooden and stuffed bodies
They aren't rare to my eyes

To toy with ones mind as if it was easy
Sitting in a mind control device
You are brainwashed by my beauty
Controlled by my words
And you do as I say as if I was your queen
For that is all I am in your glazed over eyes
A simple queen, an Aphrodite
Yet I am not that beautiful

To steal all the fish from the sea
I reel you in like a small bass
You are just another meal in my eyes
I can choose to let you swim free
But I keep you on my hook
Causing you to never love another
Your love will end on my platter
For I can steal all the millions of fish with one glance
I can catch you with no need for bait
My persusion will grab any fish upon my hook


*insperation from Kurashitsuji, Hamlet, and "There are many fish in the sea"

I was meant to be alone......Right

She never knew what was right or what was wrong.
She couldn't tell the people she wanted that she wasn't worth their time
She said yes but inside she told her self she was meant to be alone

Each day she went through their words and told each one sure
Each new message meant another boy alone
Each picture she sent was someone telling her the truth she didn't believe

Her heart was torn between girls and men
Her mind would wander when ever she was with them though
Her life still revolved around seeing him

But she was meant to be alone, or so she said
But in reality even though she was alone it was more like she was dying inside
But her heart was still beating and she would still hope for tomorrow to come

His heart was not intwined with her's
His mind imagined other girls besides her
His life wasn't about her at all

So she was meant to be alone without him
So he gave her up for something he would never have again
So her life became a ruin while his was built into a fortitude that covered his weakness

And her jealousy tore her apart from the inside
And he knew that when he saw her again she wouldn't show a smile, but instead a smirk
And this jealous girl was after him, even though she had perfection in her grasp

When You're Gone

For once I wish I could be sorry
For once I wish you remembered me
If only time was slowly moving
If only you did not retreat
Who can I tell my secrets to now
Who is the person by my side
Yes that was you once indeed it was
Yes that was you when love was kind
Now you're a dream of little impact
Now I can't even speak your name
Who am I kidding, its harder now friend
Who am I kidding, to you I'm dead
I wish I could say the same about you
I wish I could act like you're not mine
But this is how I feel my lover
This is how I feel......When You're Gone

Broken and Still Alive

Covered with scratches and tears
Bandaids don't fix this
Hurt and pained but its just another cut
My heart doesn't hurt anymore

The scars on my wrists are just memories
Each cut forgotten, each memory lost
Ruined from within and smiling still
Broken and still alive.

Forever and a Day (in Progress)

I lay on the bed stripped of my clothing, staring at the ceiling. The sheets were damp and covered in blood. My mouth stood slightly open and I could taste the watered down salt that flowed from my eyes.
The camera across the room still stared down at me. People watched my chained down body through the next room their eyes glowed from the glass window. Men stood around the walls in the same room as me. They murmured and laughed at how soft and weak my body was.
My hair was spread across the chains that held me to the hospital bed within the dark room. I closed my eyes hoping it would all go away but instead I saw the events that brought me into the painful hold.

Last night was supposed to be a night to remember. My fake ID and my provocative clothes were so new to my standards. The club was just another club and it wasn't all that intriguing but it was my first. A tall sexy man wrapped around me as I danced, and he smiled as he watched me. Soon after he had taken me to this room that I now lay and stripped me down to the embarrassment of my existence, and he told me that he would give me two grand if I showed off my body for him.
It was late and I had already had a few drinks up my sleeve and it didn't seem all that harmful but it wasn't long after I crawled on top of him that I was chained down and consumed by his violence and torment. I didn't feel it, I hadn't wanted to and I forced myself to scream in rejection to his acts but it didn't help.
Men wanted the screams they enjoyed the rejection to their glory and pride, it turned them on in a way. This male characteristic was disgusting but I was forced to feel four men's pleasured eyes on me as they watched this man soak me in. I had to hold still as my dignity was stripped from me like the clothes that now lay on the floor.

and...To be loved in return

If only a single smile could prove my love to you
If only anytime I saw you it showed you how I felt
When one word out of my mouth screamed what I am begging to tell you
My only wish is to be loved in return
I don't care if you hate me for the rest of your life after this
But as long as I love you
Please love me in return
Whether it is with friendship or with romance
Please don't take advantage of my heart like all the others have