I Am Not Your Dog

I am not somebody's pet

I don't like being petted.

My name isn't Buddy or fluffy

I do not have a tail that springs up when I'm excited

Nor am I going to fetch a stupid ball

Rubbing me behind my ears doesn't make me happy

Neither does rubbing at my arms.

I will not sit or stay because you tell me to do so

I do not chase around the yard looking for some toys

I never bark at people too and fro

And honestly if you are treating me like a dog

You should be the one in the dog house

I am not your dog!

Wonder

I wonder why you took me back into your arms
Thoughts spin through my head about memories almost forgotten
You posses my mind and my heart
For a year we have forgotten the past and each other
We hoped to meet again
The time to meet is now as we now know
For what reasons we will never know
So I continue to wonder why me

Far Away (Forever) A True Tale

Many think that love cannot survive the largest distance
I do not believe what they have to say
I know it seems like much more than 2000 miles
But numbers don't matter so they claim
People tell me every day that you are not for me
Surely they must mean the other way
I know that I am the one that isn't right for you
And when people say it's you I nearly scream
2000 miles isn't a distance you can simply walk to
A plane is too expensive for us both
I know that many think we won't survive this little issue
Others think that this is just a crush
To you and me and us 2000 miles is an inch
For it feels as if I never leave your side
But I know 2000 miles could be a distance
That keeps me from looking deep into your eyes
You can tell me every day that you love me
In your sleep you can dream of me near you
2000 miles won't change some things though
Like the way I memorize you

To Toy With One's Heart

To play with ones heart like a silly toy
I pull it along on puppet strings
You follow what I tell you
And you protect me as well as silly toys can
I have millions of you stupid toys, stupid boys
You stalk me with your eyes closed
Your wooden and stuffed bodies
They aren't rare to my eyes

To toy with ones mind as if it was easy
Sitting in a mind control device
You are brainwashed by my beauty
Controlled by my words
And you do as I say as if I was your queen
For that is all I am in your glazed over eyes
A simple queen, an Aphrodite
Yet I am not that beautiful

To steal all the fish from the sea
I reel you in like a small bass
You are just another meal in my eyes
I can choose to let you swim free
But I keep you on my hook
Causing you to never love another
Your love will end on my platter
For I can steal all the millions of fish with one glance
I can catch you with no need for bait
My persusion will grab any fish upon my hook


*insperation from Kurashitsuji, Hamlet, and "There are many fish in the sea"

I was meant to be alone......Right

She never knew what was right or what was wrong.
She couldn't tell the people she wanted that she wasn't worth their time
She said yes but inside she told her self she was meant to be alone

Each day she went through their words and told each one sure
Each new message meant another boy alone
Each picture she sent was someone telling her the truth she didn't believe

Her heart was torn between girls and men
Her mind would wander when ever she was with them though
Her life still revolved around seeing him

But she was meant to be alone, or so she said
But in reality even though she was alone it was more like she was dying inside
But her heart was still beating and she would still hope for tomorrow to come

His heart was not intwined with her's
His mind imagined other girls besides her
His life wasn't about her at all

So she was meant to be alone without him
So he gave her up for something he would never have again
So her life became a ruin while his was built into a fortitude that covered his weakness

And her jealousy tore her apart from the inside
And he knew that when he saw her again she wouldn't show a smile, but instead a smirk
And this jealous girl was after him, even though she had perfection in her grasp

When You're Gone

For once I wish I could be sorry
For once I wish you remembered me
If only time was slowly moving
If only you did not retreat
Who can I tell my secrets to now
Who is the person by my side
Yes that was you once indeed it was
Yes that was you when love was kind
Now you're a dream of little impact
Now I can't even speak your name
Who am I kidding, its harder now friend
Who am I kidding, to you I'm dead
I wish I could say the same about you
I wish I could act like you're not mine
But this is how I feel my lover
This is how I feel......When You're Gone

Broken and Still Alive

Covered with scratches and tears
Bandaids don't fix this
Hurt and pained but its just another cut
My heart doesn't hurt anymore

The scars on my wrists are just memories
Each cut forgotten, each memory lost
Ruined from within and smiling still
Broken and still alive.